hot in the city

manila's temperature yesterday reached a sweltering 36.1 degrees celcius. and it's not funny at all when you're living in a home with no aircon. (well, one aircon but it's in my parent's room and one aircon in my BIL's house).

the past few nights were spent at my in laws where not one but three electric fans running throughout the night. one for hubby and keon to share, the other for kade and i to share, the other for SIL. kyle chose to sleep in BIL's room and at the request of his cousin, Migs.

sleeping at night was torture, especially for me since i don't have my comfort pillows and my usual evening rituals (hehe). i haven't been getting the sleep that i need since i have to constantly check the kids in the middle of the night in case they're getting soaked by their own sweat. good thing they can still sleep peacefully.

and just this morning before leaving for work, power had been cut off. meralco decided to go with their rotational brownouts again. just when the heat has been really really annoying.

i was more worried for kade because he has started to have prickly heat around his neck, which for sure all mommies would agree, is one of our worst enemies during the summer. plus the fact that kade's hair is quite long already and has been reaching his eyes. so he tends to rub, scratch and tug at his hair.(our tradition is to have their first haircut on their first birthday, so a little sacrifice on our part and our boys)

our best solution:

put his hair up in pigtails. which obviously by the looks of this picture, he's not liking it at all. haha! but a little sacrifice has to be made for more comfort for the little one.

but he sure looks cute right?

kade: "hay naku mommy..." LOL

flashback

is that you kade?

oh hey there kyle!

these two boys are such carbon copies of me when i was a kid. keon's no contest, came from the same mold as his dad's :)

separation anxiety all over again

kade has turned 9 months yesterday and he has discovered another milestone/feat. whenever i leave him in the crib to grab something quick, he would wail, and call out to me. or whenever i hand him over to his dad for some little daddy-son bonding, he protests, which, to hubby's dismay. i feel bad for hubby that sometimes he gets the impression that his bunso doesn't want him that much vs me. but of course he went through the same thing with our two boys before. it's just heartbreaking to see him that way.

he often jokes that our sons prefer me over him, but i've assured him a hundred times that by the time they reach grade school (which is not far by the looks of it since kyle's in kinder already) they'll be the best of friends and mommy will be the enemy.

but really, deep inside, i love the attention i get from my boys when they were this young. that i am their star, the only thing they need. well, now it's only kade who's doing it for me. kyle and keon have grown up to do things on their own and usually needs me when they want milk or go to the potty.

how time flies so fast that soon enough, these three boys would be so embarrassed to let me kiss them to death, smell their feet and armpits, cuddle and make funny noises before bedtime.

i think i'm the one having separation anxiety for the past 5 years now. hahaha

shoe envy

i've been on the lookout for the perfect purple shoes for my wedding, and i'm stuck. i've got a lot of photos over the net and i don't know which one to choose to have customized. yes, if i can't purchase it online, i'm going to have it custom made. :)

now, help me choose:

the studs are fab! but it doesn't work with our 1920's theme. but the color, to die for!

choices, choices, choices...

shaping up

my weight has seriously bothered me for quite a while. it started when i first had my shot of depo-provera aka injectibles. i was forewarned by my ob that i would feel a little bloated after a month or so.

a little bloated was a lie. boy i did gain a lot. embarrassing as it may sound, but i'm now at 130lbs. 15lbs heavier than my ideal weight.

as of my last check up/shot with my ob, she said, i had to lose those 15lbs. at first i wasn't that worried since i don't look that heavy and people have said i looked better now.

but, there's a wedding in november and I HAVE TO SHED these pounds off. i wouldn't want to look all bloated and "chubby" on my wedding day.

so, i started taking l carnatine and green tea capsules 3x a day (aka fitrum) the other slimming pills in the market scare me. sure, it's effective and all but the thought of feeling oil coming out of you involuntarily doesn't sound so appealing at all.

and i also plan to go to the gym by this month. good thing our office has a corporate package with one of the well known gyms here in the metro. as soon as i settle the LAST payment for my credit card. i'm debt free and can really save up for the kid's future.

now let's see in the coming months if i do shed off these pounds, maybe more!

wish me luck!

to cut or let it grow

my hair's been quite a mess for almost a month now. a huge mess. it's more confused than i am. it's too long to be a short 'do, but too short for a shoulder length do.

now i'm all torn in cutting it, and go back to my usual short hair or grow it long so that there'll be more styles in time for my wedding.

but for now i'm loving this 'do:

now with this hair do, how do i maintain it? do i have to use a hairdryer everyday? wax? styling serum? anti-frizz serums?

i'd rather not post what my hair looks like now or else i might lose the handful of readers i have now. hahaha!

hot mama!

met Eula Valdez in the flesh! can you say girl crush??

still so pretty after all these years!

and she's the only one who was all dressed up during the event.

Ristras

one late night after hubby picked me up from work, we decided to treat ourselves. we have been scrimping and saving up for the wedding and the kid's school, that we thought, why not enjoy something new for a change?

while driving along wilson st. (a little short cut from our usual edsa way going home) we chanced upon Ristras along J. Abad Santos st. i read about it when i read Anton's (our awesome planet) and the reviews were quite ok. good thing hubby agreed since we're not fans of mexican food. give us tuna and salmon sashimi anytime!

here's what we ordered:

nachos: got sold with the purple chips! the dips were so-so, i thought it was a specialty but it tasted generic.

quesadillas: didn't expect it to be this huge! but i was really hungry and i finished off 2 traingles. hehe if only we knew we can choose the toppings, we would've avioded the fresh onions, bell peppers and the green leafy stuff on top.

it was really good and filling.

we didn't try the burrito since i told hubby i wasn't in the mood for one and i have a feeling that it will sure give me gas for a week. haha! we didn't expect the size of the burrito. again, it was huge! saw the people next in line order two. one for each of them. but surprisingly, they were able to finish it. grabe!

for sure, we'll come back to ristras and try it out again. :)

thought bubbles

how can you remain positive when the people around you are so negative that sometimes, it just rubs off you. as much as you want to avoid it, they seem to gravitate towards you, perhaps trying to suck you in into their own sad world.

how can i raise my kids with all the good vibes and positive energy if these people keep on blocking it off?

if i had a choice, i'd leave them all behind. after all, they only think about themselves and what benefits them, so why not do the same for my kids?

but of course i can't because, i just can't.

updates updates

since i'm on a blogging high today, might as well post things we've been up to as a family.

keon's finally going to school this june! and the people who are on the same level of excitement as ours are his future teacher! she was able to meet him for a trial run for a week. and he was the star of the class. sadly that time, he just turned 2 and he's quite young to go to school this fear of seeing him bored before he hits his highschool term scares me. keon has this tendency to get bored easily so putting him in school after he turns three sounds reasonable. since his attention span is much better compared to when he was 2. and his vocabulary has blossomed! it felt like he was talking in straight sentences from the moment he was born! such a talkative boy! make that 2 boys! conversations with kyle feels like talking to a grown up already!

wedding preps are in full blast. more updates on my wedding blog. :)

work has been fun even with a very intimidating quota/target. but i know our team can make it! the incentive's a great motivator! hahaha

whew, so far, that's what's been on my mind lately. will update/revive this blog as i go along. :)

but you can find me on twitter, tumblr, plurk and facebook LOL