a message from God

On this day of your life, Hazel, we believe God wants you to know...
... that doubt is the greatest gift, - it's the space between two certainties.

Any change on its way from one place of stability to the next one, passes through a period of doubt. Your old perspective has to disintegrate, and doubt comes in for a visit - even if only for a moment, before the new perspective takes root. Doubt is your greatest gift, because from doubt you can go anywhere.

and i thought that doubting is wrong. i guess now i have to change perspectives to see things more clearly.

quoting incubus

whatever tomorrow brings, i'll be there
with open arms and and open eyes..

and it somehow uplifted my weary spirit at times like this. incubus couldn't have said it better when it comes to thinking positive and just facing the world.

so i say, bring it on world. i'm ready.

to the best hardworking hubby in the world

a big congratulations on your promotion! good job! the youngest ever to run a sales office for ABI. idol! =)

good job aishi! i know you can do it. prove them all wrong.

all the late nights of going home paid off. i hope this time you get to follow your own schedule and pace. your boys and baby and i are all behind you.

good job aishi!!

this recession got me depressed

it's sales report day again and i have succumbed into depression. all my updates were pending accounts and sadly no closed sale for this month. most of the pending accounts that i have would book starting june or july. and it's quite depressing to submit a mediocre report to my boss who expects so much.

times are definitely hard right now. i've even resorted to begging my contacts/clients to speed up the approvals so that we could at least book an ad placement. but no dice. people are really holding on to their cash for dear life.

i sure hope that next month would be positive for us and the business.

Black Heart Inertia

pardon the fangirl in me. but i am an Incubus fan eversince. and seeing brandon boyd in nerdy glasses makes me all giggly and kilig like a highschool student.

His and Hers

Thanks to hubby's connection with the people from Adidas (ex office mates to be exact) we were able to score some rocking sneakers. hubby has about 4 pairs of these and i guess it's about time i have to have one for my own too.

behold, our first his and hers item: sneakers!!

minehubby's

this is one of the lightest sneakers i have ever worn!

New Moon: The Leaked Poster

i know, i know a lot of people have posted this already. but come on, admit it, you're interested as well.

thanks to a booboo by a site for publishing the poster online a day in advance.

enjoy! i may watch this and hope and pray it wouldn't turn into a laughing session with constipated actors...


*side comment: bakit parang ang liit ni bella? bumansot ba siya? hihi

Preggy update #5: 30 weeks and counting

8 weeks more to go and baby#3 will be full term. more or less that would be around the week of july 12 to 18. the only thing i hope won't happen is that kyle won't share his birthday with his baby sister/brother.

on with the updates then.

so far it's a bit annoying that people comment how small i carry this baby. how they can go about saying that i carry small in such a way that sounds like i don't eat enough, i don't take my vitamins etc. but i still have the willpower to ignore them and just say in a polite manner that i do carry my kids small. but they come out pretty healthy. kyle was a 7 pounder and keon was a 6. so it wouldn't be a surprise if this little one would be within these range.

anyway, here's what babycenter has to say about me being on my 30th week:

Good news — at this point your baby's lungs and digestive tract are nearly mature, meaning she'll do much better in the event of premature birth. Researchers also believe your baby can actually see now, in utero, but no one knows exactly how much she can make out. She's also becoming more cramped in your uterus and less able to move so freely, although when she does move, it's very noticeable.

comparing baby #3 from my two, this one has the most noteable movements. the twists and turns are quite disturbing and painful on most days. sleeping on my left side is a chore, i think baby #3 hates it when i do.

but other than that, the feeling has been great, the pregnancy a breeze, the food trips amazing.

8 more weeks to go and we'll see this bundle of happiness.

p.s.

we still don't know the gender because she/he refuses to show the genitals. totally covered up! next week i guess - if funds permit for another ultrasound. :)

a little more each day

my kyle is a little boy no more. everyday, he learns something new and it amazes me that in just a few months, i'll have a 4 year old as a first born. how time flies that he has been quite dependent. a few things he can do on his own:

> go to the potty to pee
> take off his clothes before taking a bath
> get water
> eat on his own using adult sized utensils (bitin siya when he uses those kiddie sized ones)
> try to tie his shoelaces

and the latest achievement since last night: he can finally write his name without any assistance.

i got so teary-eyed that here is my little boy gaining more independence each day. part of me got scared that one day, he won't need me anymore. part of me wanted to keep him like that forever.

it was such a milestone for kyle and i because all the effort we went through in learning the letters of his name, to actually trying to write it on paper. he can already spell out his name (in case he gets lost daw (oh dear) and tell the guard his name.

i can't wait for his next milestone. i may not get to spend 100% of my time with him but i am happy that i still get to see his milestones. that i somehow get blessed in getting the chance to actually witness it for the first time. this is such a reward for me as a mom. not only to kyle but also to keon who, is sharing his own milestones with me.

i am truly blessed to have such wonderful kids. i can't wait what this third little wonder can do in the future.

Mommy Moments: Silly Moments

first time to join Mommy Moments and i love the theme!

Here are a few snapshots of the kids in their silly moments. :)





such silly boys! :)