letters to my 3 boys

i tried to write them letters that they get to read once they're bigger, but the moment i start the letter i get washed away with so much emotion that i can't continue. but i have to, i just don't know when. i have to control my emotions first and get these letters done.

my plan is to have a letter for them on their 7th, 13th, 21st and 30th birthday.

dear lord, give me strength and emotional capability to finish them before the tears start to fall again...